Yeah... I'm not a stranger to this, to only seek some form of help when it's too late already. And then some time after that, even. In my case it's because I hate it when people feel sorry for me, or that they get the impression that I'm being greedy or something. Even though I know I'm not. Though that's more how I used to be. Took me a while to figure out I actually dont'really give a shit what people think about me and that I'd rather see them leave someone I am than stick with someone I'm not.