I've been really sad lately. I've never really been sad before. And it's for the weirdest reason, too. I really like this girl. And she likes me back. She lives about 3 hours from me but we've only "hung out" the three days of the music festival where we met, two years ago. We recently got to talking again. She had a breakup sometime in the last year and she is currently working some things out, on sick leave and sleeping lots. And I've put myself in a position where I've said that "I really like you, whenever you are ready I want to do things with you." And while I know that it's not really a great position, it's something I stand by. I can wait. I just hope she doesn't change her mind. Or becomes bored of me. Or finds someone else. And that's the part that makes me sad. And scared. My daily happiness is basically dependent on my conversations with her. And it's so scary, because I've never had that before. And I overthink things. I've never been in love, and I've never had a steady girlfriend. I'm almost 27 and I know I am placing too much importance on the outcome of this. Kind of proving to myself that I can be loved by someone. At the same time, things are really stressful at work and I'm not sleeping well. So I get so sad. Today is a good day though. Because I'm talking to her and she's saying nice things to me. Ugh. This is probably unhealthy. I don't really have any close friends here who I can confide in. I have friends, but they are play friends. I know I could talk to them about it, but I would prefer to keep them as "fun only," for some reason unknown even to myself. Felt good writing it here though. This is a good thread.